Dear friends it's been a long time since I have shared my thoughts but haven't you found this year incredibly tough in all respects. Yes, I am thankful for the reflection the days at home allowed but it didn't remove my anxiety or fear. I have been unemployed for close to 2 years now and … Continue reading Scared to start over
Well, the emotional upheaval of everyday life. Those minor misunderstandings that lead to major meltdowns. I took a mental health day yesterday after feeling brilliant for months. I thought I was finally in a positive place. Life has purpose again. The opportunity to live and work abroad and I am grabbing the opportunity with both … Continue reading What still trips me up…
After a recent break up I realized that Walking the Clouds alone is OK without feeling the accompanying loneliness. I feel better off and empowered. I walked away from a situation that was not good for me. A situation that made me feel imprisoned rather than free. And if I must admit I wasn't happy … Continue reading Walking the Clouds alone without being lonely
I sometimes think that happiness has made me an arch enemy and dislikes me with such intensity we could never cross paths. I find misery, disappointment, hopelessness and conflict are my permanent allies. I am not consoled by the slightest moments of light. I am wrestling both inwardly and outwardly with my mind and soul. … Continue reading Happiness can you be found?
Trying to find myself in the sea of joblessness is proving difficult. I find myself more lost as time passes. And finding my sanity at its most vulnerable and fragile. Trying to cope without medication is proving impossible. I can see the decline in my thoughts and increased anxiety. As if worrying enough will bring … Continue reading Lost
How does one jostle hope when feeling on the brink of a nervous breakdown?? I am taking a stride towards hope by writing this blog post. And putting words to screen feels good. Unemployment, depression, rejection, more depression and a million other little things like running out of medication. Not resulting in hypo mania but … Continue reading Jostling hope
As I have walked this blog journey I have shared that I am job hunting. Despite bipolar depression ready to sink in, I am fortunately still able to apply for jobs. I had an interview recently that is always cause for stress deluxe to my system. I know what to expect but every interview scenario … Continue reading Finding hope through the impossible
I am going through a tough time personally. I left my job 4 months ago due to my work situation affecting my health and despite every effort cannot seem to be successful. Ever been there? I sometimes get that exasperated feeling of what's the point but all I know is I cannot give up. While … Continue reading Jobless does not mean hopeless
Maybe it's a deep question for a Tuesday afternoon depending where you are. I am battling with forgiveness of myself and another. This is no trifling matter either. I have beaten myself so many times instead of practicing self compassion. Why is it easier to wield the stick of pain than an embracing, caring hug … Continue reading Is forgiveness final?
I am in my season of reflection during my personal sabbatical after leaving a traumatic work situation. Now it is time to move on from what was. And finding healthy me again. Due to the reduction in stress my combination of medication is effective in minimum quantities. The end result is a more focused and … Continue reading A Season of Reflection