What is tolerance? It is the consequence of humanity. We are all formed of frailty and error; let us pardon reciprocally each other’s folly – that is the first law of nature. Voltaire
So, it feels like I landed in the mud and chose to lay there out of sheer embarrassment until I was finally allowed to go home. It was both mortifying and soul-destroying. But doesn’t life throw one these curve balls when you least expect it or even want it?
The responses I received were all impolite to downright harsh and for this highly sensitive soul this was unbearable. And while turning to the pen as an output to my intense hurt and rage I am reminded how often that someone like myself who lives with mental illness is treated with inhumanity by others who live in ignorance. They genuinely have no clue what it is to live with mental illness and what it takes to endure it when it hits one from every angle and body point possible.
I have to get used to the routine of waking at the same time, sleeping at the same time and when you cannot sleep at the said time then it’s virtually impossible to survive in the morning. Then there are the medications which need to be taken at the same time every day. And then there’s getting through the day when you mind is due north of depression island. And then there’s life and its mild inconveniences; the monthly or bi-monthly medical appointments, the bi-monthly queues at pharmacies and the judgement one gets for the doctor indicated on the script as psychiatrist. Yet, so many that would say but so many people live with a chronic illness and go through that very routine, so what? It is the so what in that comment that proves my point.
So what if I miss taking my medications and become hypomanic and life becomes a rollercoaster ride until the crash and there is always a crash. So what if I don’t keep to a routine and my body’s biorhythm go haywire and tosses me about like a dinghy in a bad storm lost at sea. So what if my illness spirals out of control.
I read a quote once which said ‘if you can be anything, be kind’. I think those who are wise words to live by. Don’t you?
I think that for far too often have I as I am sure many of you also experienced through the treatment by others that could have been gentler, kinder with a touch of humanity and dare I say it sensitivity. We are such an evolved species with our artificial intelligence and emotional intelligence, yet, despite going high-tech and having superior intuition we have managed to lose the mastery of being human.